Instant Happiness

Ok, confession. Yesterday I was completely drunk. And it feels… horrible.

Yuck.

Ok, another confession, I’m a newcomer in this business. How can I say, I love them when we were together for only a year? Probably it is too early to judge things.

Ok, another confession, I was stupid enough to force my self to help a friend in his thesis and play badminton while I was drunk. Nothing good came out of it, for sure.

So, after the badminton session I sat quietly on the bench and gaze into the wire fence field boundary.

“What is it?”

“Nothing,” I stared at him a little then continue gazing at the wires.

“What is it?”

“Nothing.”

Nothing. I feel empty. Betrayad. I wanted to be alone.

I’ve been a truly big fan because they gave me such a boost of energy on weekends. Enough energy to feel instant happiness and dance around all night. And after that the exhausting feeling put me into a deep sleep and take away the guilty feeling of waking up late in the next morning. And this time they just sucked away my energy and gave a terrible headache all day. What a big liar.

I shrugged. Okay, I will take this as a time to stop a while. Sometimes in life, you just have to do that. Catch a breath, hold my self not to jump into experiences and just observe more. I want happiness, infinitely and eternally, not a fake instant one in a price of six packs.

Guess I will just stay away from things like this.

At least, until the weekend comes ;)

Happiness comes from the heart. And it is priceless - my own wisdom ass